(no subject)

I know that I would never be this blue
If you missed me half as much as I miss you...
If you only loved me half as much as I love you

(no subject)

The sun rises and falls
And on goes the day
In every direction of the compass
We ride a tropical desert region
Traveling to a distant idea of time
And there is music

My ashes smoke the melodies of your love

Been accused of being confused
And I never denied it
It's the right or more wrong
In the world I'm a fallen angel
Within mine, I'm in hell

You never see me anymore
And that's all right
But you keep on saying you want more
Oh what more?
When you showed me the door

And it's your pride
You don't have to swallow
Now, all I want is time to recover

And I'm boiling over
Gotta let off some steam
Cause it's hotter than my hell
Could ever be

And it's all true,
You do like the others
Cause you're hotter than my hell
Could ever be
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(no subject)

Well my friends, I see your face so clearly
Little bit tired, little worn through the years
You sound nervous, you seem alone
I hardly recognize your voice on the telephone

In between I remember
Just before bound-up, broken-down
We drive out to the edge of the highway
Follow that lonesome dead-end roadside south

We're all in this thing together
Walkin' the line between faith and fear
This life don't last forever
When you cry I taste the salt in your tears

Well my friend, let's put this thing together
And walk the path with worn out feet of trial
if you wanted we can go home forever
Give up your jaded ways, spell your name to God

All we are is a picture in a mirror
Fancy shoes to grace our feet
All there is is a slow road to freedom
Heaven above and the devil beneath

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“Nellie!” he exclaimed, with entire irrelevance, “I can't bear it much longer. I must see her.”

“What's the matter with the man now? How can you expect to see her when she is ill in bed?”

“I don't believe she is ill in bed. That man lied yesterday when he said so. I could see it in his face. Fools that we were not to insist upon seeing her!”

“Speak for yourself, my cousin. I hope that I have a stronger sense of good manners than to force my way into a man's house when he clearly shows his objection to my entrance.”

“I am almost certain,” said Gower, “that I heard a cry from the house as we stood there talking to him.”

“I heard nothing but the gobbling of the turkeys in the yard,” said Nellie.

“I know she is in trouble,” continued Gower, paying little heed to his cousin. "I have felt that trouble was near her ever since that day she left us so abruptly. Yesterday and to-day I have been unable to rest for the feeling that she is in need of help—in need of me. Last night she called me; I heard her as plainly as I now hear my own voice; and I was broad awake.”

“O, for heaven's sake, have done! Don't startle one out of one's wits with your queer notions!”

“I beg your pardon, Nellie. I didn't mean to startle you.”

“There, now, you are huffed. Unlucky me! I am always putting my foot in it. Gower, don't be cross.”

“I'm not cross, Nellie. And you are the only one I have to speak to about her. I must go to her if this thing continues.”

“And suppose you see her, what then?”

“I will persuade her to come away with me.”

“O, you will? Have you said anything to her, may I ask?”

“I have asked her to go away with me, if that's what you mean.”

“O, you have? And what did she say?”

“She cried, poor thing, and talked of the sin of it; as if it would be so great a sin as wearing her life out with that man whom I know she hates.”

(no subject)

My father has pancreatic cancer. He's been having bad stomach pain for a few weeks now and hasn't been going to work. He had a CAT scan and they found a tumor in his pancreas and another in his liver. This is the same cancer his mother died from. 95% of people diagnosed with this die within 5 years.

I am so scared. so so scared.

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and lonely nights,
I've waited for you
to put things to rights.
Leaving you to do
your thing without
disturbance from me
Somehow I doubt
you'll ever be
I'll keep your things
if you ever need them,
the phone still rings
And now that you're free
of me at last
your time is your own
go have a blast
and I'll dream alone
without you
I'll dream alone
if I must
because I guess our little castle in the sky just turned to dust
So I'll dream alone: that's showbiz
I'll dream alone from the end,
and I'll be trying not to dream of what was once and might have been
if only I'd known
I'll dream alone

Dreams we had a few
But what kind of dream
beats you black and blue?
I wanted to scream, "don't go away"
but nothing came out
all I could say was

I'll dream alone
without you
I'll dream alone
if I must
because I guess our little castle in the sky just turned to dust
So I'll dream alone: that's showbiz
I'll dream alone from the end,
and I'll be trying not to dream of what was once and might have been
if only I'd known
I'll dream alone
record player

(no subject)

Sending heavy words to my mouth
But deep confusion corrupts my leading hate
And they get lost along the way
And I can't say anything

Is it called life?
Unwillingly I follow...

Missing the warmth
I creep
Overwhelmed by a sickening darkness
A storm above, a war
Strangely ruled by silence
A frightening stillness
And an inner violence

I realize
But can't change

And sinking into these ineffable thoughts
Searching for answers
Analyzing everything far too much
My mind paralyzes my behavior
And I become a mute daydreamer
And unconsciously, I forget
The most important fact

That time passes by...
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(no subject)

You're such a sweet thing
But you can be so mean
You're such a sweet thing
You used to make me dream

But then there's times when you are very different
I just don't understand
How a minute you can be so mean
The next minute so grand
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record player

(no subject)

I just want to talk to you. I won't do you no harm
I just want to know about your different lives, on this here people farm

I heard some of you got your families, living in cages tall & cold,
And some just stay there and dust away, past the age of old
Is this true? Please let me talk to you

I just wanna know about, the rooms behind your minds
Do I see a vacuum there, or am I going blind?
Or is it just remains from vibrations and echoes long ago
Things like 'Love the World' and 'Let your fancy flow'
Is this true? Please let me talk to you. Let me talk to you

I have lived here before, the days of ice
And of course this is why I'm so concerned
And I come back to find the stars misplaced
And the smell of a world that has burned

The smell of a world that has burned

Well, maybe, maybe it's just a change of climate
I can dig it, I can dig it baby, I just want to see

So where do I purchase my ticket
I would just like to have a ringside seat
I want to know about the new Mother Earth
I want to hear and see everything
I want to hear and see everything
I want to hear and see everything

Aw, shucks
If my daddy could see me now
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